Excuse me?

Here's something from my DREEEEEEAM.

I thought/imagined/dreamt that my dad gave me his cell phone number, which was the new one. But i didn't save it. Cause i just didn't give a shit, so then he called me back on Sunway Lagoon's number saying that he got my sister & i tickets to go for all the rides. ( okay i know where this is from, Aaron called me earlier today about it ) Then i said okay, what time? But he hung up. So i called him back, but on his old number. Some indian man answered the phone repeating my name 100000000000 times then called me knnmcb and hung up -.- omg what kind of dream is that?!

So you know when you get dreams, you just sort of remember parts of it? Well yeah, next part!

This dream does not make any freaking sense at all by the way.

I was studying my economics, then i received a phone call from my mom asking me to cycle to the nearest Ramly burger stall to buy dinner. So i did. I don't know why didn't i just refuse.. Then i got into an accident. Similar to the one i had when i was a kid. (so now you people would know why my right tooth is not as white as my left. It's a dead tooth! D: the nerves are kind of dead? i might need to get something done with it soon.) Okay, so strangely i managed to get the Ramly burger for everyone. Fuck lah, this is damn nonsensical.

Next!

I was having a pillow fight.. with.. i don't know who. Honestly, i really can't recall. But suddenly, i ended up making out with that someone. WHAT THE FUCK RIGHT? Best part is that i could actually feel the whole tongue and touching blahblahblah. HAHAHA. i think i'm so lacked of a man's touch for the past one or two months i'm actully psycho-ing myself to believe i really am in my dreams. I guess i shoudn't mention which ex boyfriend of mine this is since he might question me about this :/

I guess maybe it's just a once in awhile bad dream, thinking of random happenings, or i'm just thinking of the past? I don't usually get all these 3 in 1 dreams either. Oh well..

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Beeb-o!

AND THEN I TRIED AGAIN! hahahaha. This time i became hyper and the dog got scared of me.

I geram. heh.

So i took of it's leash. ( when the owner told me not to, i don't know why )

But then it decided to calm down. Shit, i don't know anything about dogs. Neither does the owner! :P

:)

Okay, now i'm signing off, for real.

Right this moment, i have this

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sitting right beside me. haha. Yes cute, cute.

BUT it's the most goddamn hardest dog to take a bloody photo with. 

Prolly it's just a puppy so it's hyper eh? 

I hope so. 

It's still hopping all over me.

Hmmm. I'll try to teach the dog something with my oh-so-chunted patience.

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Secrets Trapped Beneath.

Hahaha, to those blog readers of mine who just started reading my blog prolly just this year, i don't think you've seen these before!

Anyway, how i ended up browsing through these photos? Well, i was initially cleaning up my files till i found! "2006 photos, 2007 photos, 2008 photos" Now that i've browsed through the photos, i think i looked extremely horrible with braces on then. I don't get how some people want to wear them back on right after they take em' off. Lets start with the people who i somehow take more photos with.

Joann Tee

With Cali too :)

Next!

Verene Ong

ANDDD Ryaisha Filda

Not forgetting, Rizal!

Well lastly, the first boy that caught my eye & my first boyfriend wayy back in form one :)

Don't worry, we're just good friends now. heh.

Anyways, there's sooooo many more photos but i don't think your eyes can stand the horror! hahaha. Im'ma go now. History paper tomorrow :/

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Looks over personality? Damnit.

EVERYONE PLEASE CHILL! :(

Anyway, currently talking to Aimii. After so long! haha. & I need to read up on my Moral notes. I'm so screwed.

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Still a part of everything that i do.

I think everything i've been doing is.. Not the things that i would usually do. I've been getting headaches for no apparent reason, eventhough i'm stress free ( or so i think ). Shopping online when i don't usually like buying stuff without trying them on first. Singing in the shower, when i usually do that only if i'm very happy.. Okay, nothing else i can think of atm. I guess there is more stuff that makes me mad, but i guess i shouldn't state it here :)

& i think i have two new crushes! hahaha. Okay, i guess i'll have to face the reality that i can never be with them. Sadly, i don't they even know i exist. One of them is Gabe Bondoc. Go see his videos on Youtube!

Also, i remembered having a heart to heart talk with a very close friend of mine. We're not the closest, but i guess i learnt something from this; to never judge a book by it's cover. She told me, "Babe, the sky's the limit. Don't ever think you can't find happiness if you thought that made you feel like the luckiest thing on earth." & everyday, i remind myself of what she said, so far i think i'm doing well. :) i guess it's a mind over matter sorta thing. I don't know what i'll do without people like you. xo!

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Give me a fucking break, would you?

So i said i owed u guys photos from the Deepavali open house @ Menon's. Not going to post those photos from Calista since it's already in her blog. CLICK!

Our gift to her

 Ali & i baked em'. we just put the rest's names..

Rocky! our appitizer. Like, 2 hours before we got there..

Ali was snapping awayyy

:O

and away.

Ali had so many pets. seriouslyyy

otw there :) waiting for Calista

ThoKhan withhh?

Pink lipstick!

Calistarr dear :)

the yummy buffet. - oh, i love mutton curry :D

:)

i wasnt aware.. hmm.

Anyway, we went seperate ways after the dinner so yeah. No photos from here on. That's all!

signing off,

samanthakoay.

No explanation? I don't think you have one.

Anyway..
-Firstly, happy 3rd month anniversary Calista & Samuel :) - although i don't quite believe in the whole monthly anni thing but yeah, grats!

-Secondly, Aaron's back; but not in perfect condition :/ Poor guy. Shall not mention it here eyy? Sensitive issue.. hmm.

-Thirdly, i've been a goddamn greedy pig today! I ate.. 4 times since i woke up. How to loose weight? So now how? Do i look better with alot of flesh? HAHAHAH. no, i mean SERIOUSLYYYYY!

-Lastly, i've got an hour and a half class in a bit. Got to go :P

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Happy DEEEEEEPAVALI

fat arms :)

I'm contented with my mutton curry from the Deepavali open house and the company of girlfriends and their boyfriends -.- Well, i'm yet to post up more pictures as soon as i get em all from the other cameras. Goodnight!

Eh, aaron coming back tomorrow right? hahaha.

signing off,

samanthakoay

I'd like to know

I start to wonder sometimes; the second i wake up, the moment i loose my focus, or just before i shut my eyes to sleep.. Why is everything around me changing? Things revolve so quickly, sometimes i don't even see it; even when it's right in front of me. People around me that mean something, or even nothing,  changes for the worse, somehow.. I'm clearly aware that i'm no one to judge or to criticize, but the feeling is kept inside and it sucks when it suddenly hits me, and i now know i'm left with no one to lean on.

Aaron's in Indonesia for his race, the girls are busy, Ash's with his other half, and quite frankly i don't have that many friends to turn to when i'm down. I hate being left home alone, i think of the strangest and make myself do the nastiest. Where's my fag?

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Double sided

What i did last night?



First, adding a school physics teacher on fb. Who is extremely.. idk. strange as hell sometimes.
Secondly, having the urge to grab a Ramly burger, & i did get it :)
Thirdly, talking to Greg as he showed me videos of Ris Low. Oh yes, miss singapore. Unfortunately, she was dethroned for a credit card fraud. Hahaha, so much for animal prinks! Go check videos of her on youtube, it'll crack you up. heh.
Lastly, camwhoring with myyyyyyy.. MOM?

Yeap, alrighty that's all for now.

signing off,

samanthakoay.

Too Twisted

to you: since i'm left with no answer on fb, i'm sure you'll come across this on my blog. i suppose you didn't bother replying that one short message cause i don't mean anything anymore? i don't know. hmm, you like seeing me this way don't you? if that's your guilty pleasure, i've got nothing else i can say. thanks, alot.

To form5s, thanks for your co-operation for prom king & queen nominations today.

signing off,

samanthakoay

i am alone

I just got home and I've been abandon by everyone :( Gym was okay today, my lungs are still in OK condition. 18 minutes on the treadmill non stop. haha, jakun. Elwin wasn't in the best mood cause of some issues, but least Ali was still Ali. Table talk session with him again, and well. Least we don't keep it all to ourselves eh?

Anyway, here i am. Bored as hell, so, to keep myself occupied, i'm currently feeding on prawn crackers and hello pandas. Some of my favourite junk. heh. Of course not just food, i'm not Lilian :P I decided to camwhore since i haven't done that in quite a while, or prolly i never quite posted so many pictures of myself :)

Yes, foooood.

OKAY! bai.

signing off,

samanthakoay

ONE?

Have you ever felt so down and so lost that no words can describe?
Have you ever felt the feeling when everything you had; once so perfect, is now turning it's back on you?
Have you ever felt like you could simply trust nobody anymore?
Have you ever felt like you could never casually pick up the phone, dial his number and spill your heart out, & in the end you just know that everything's going to be alright?


I have. And everyday i fake a smile, a laugh and trying my best to live up to expectations.

Goodnight.

signing off,

samanthakoay

Big Bum :)

Today's a special day forrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr,
BIG BUM JOANN :)
 i love love love you babe. I'm not going to type up a whole story of how me met and all again. Cause what matters is that we know how much we've bond and how much we've been through in the past 3 years or so. Thanks for being my crying shoulder and my jack in the box. heh. Your spontaneity cracks me up all the time ;)

This photo is our fav. haha.

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Besides this, it just suddenly occured to me if i should colour my hair brown again just like last year.

Opinions?

signing off,

samanthakoay.