So far..

It might be a little too late for this, but just suddenly when i was thinking to myself, i suddenly realised how much i've learnt and been through in the year 2009. Yes, it was a craaaazy one. I went through ups and downs; sometimes with the support of my closest of friends or family and sometimes alone. Drama and what not that happened last year, honestly, i would've never expected it to happen. One thing i clearly remember was the stage Calista & i weren't in talking terms. Just a slight misunderstanding, had us ignoring each another for 2 months i think? But, thankfully that made our bond stronger as we learnt from our mistakes. Right babe? :)

Dramas aside, after being single for 2 and a half years? Then came along AC. haha, prolly you'd know who that is. I, honestly was falling head over heels for him. Never ever would i have thought we'd even be friends as we barely had any mutual friends whatsoever. Although the relationship didn't last, that again didn't make us enemies. Yes, we argue and all. But he was there even after that. Cause a he's just a phonecall away for a lecture whenever i'm making dumb decisions. heh. Later that year, i decided to just follow my heart & do whatever it tells me to. Never in my mind, i'd even think of dating a guy 7 years older than me. Age is just a number right? Thing is, we were never official but it's much more confusing than that. Trust me. Eventhough i felt things within us were perfect, he was great, my parents beg to differ. It didn't take them too long before they found out and i was forbidden to see him. I hated that stage of the year. I really hated it. You have no fuckin' idea. My freedom and everything a teenager would want was taken away from me. But in time, i gained my mom's trust slowly yet eventually. I'm glad it's over & i wouldn't have lived past that "depression phase" if it wasn't for the talks from Aaron, Ethan & Verene.

Let's not talk about studies since we ALL know that was the shittiest thing that has ever happened. Haha.

I'm a person who has to go through things the hard way when people tell me there's always an easier way. I always refuse to listen, so that'd mean i.am.stubborn. Yes, that's what i am. I wish to say that is what i was. Still trying to amend that part of me. Still in the process okay? It's a new year, a new start. I promise not to drift from my goals this year now. I'm pretty sure of myself :)

signing off,

samanthakoay.